What Happened by Hillary Rodham Clinton

What Happened



When I picked up this book, I wasn’t quite sure how I’d react to it. From what it looked like, it was going to be a pity party about why she lost and where she’d put the blame on everyone else but her.

I also would have preferred Bernie Sanders. Since I’m registered as an independent, I can’t vote in the primaries in my state. However, when it became clear that she was the Democrat nominee, I 100% changed and knew that my vote was for the most competent person running. It was also a vote against Trump as well. Because there was no way I was having a racist, misogynistic, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, rapist asshole as my president. It was also a vote for history, for a woman who knew what she was extremely competent.

Yet, I didn’t think she had a strong platform because I never heard anything about it. It was all about her damn emails. And what you heard about it, it sounded like another four years of the same old, same old. While that sounded like bliss to me, it wasn’t what others wanted. And there was Trump, spouting his racist rhetoric about how all immigrants are rapists, murderers, drug dealers, or terrorists.

What Clinton did in this book was lay out what happened and what her platform was because the news focused on her emails and the circus Trump was running to confuse everyone. It was doable. It had clear solutions rather than grandiose ideas that Trump (and Bernie) spouted off. And while she did some blaming, she explained what was going on for her to say this AND took a whole lot of responsibility.

The end of the book stuck with me the most. It called for empathy. For kindness and loving people. For understanding people even if you don’t agree with them. It was basically the same message of One Nation After Trump, a book that I loved because of that message of spreading empathy rather than hating and shouting at people. And, sadly, people ignore that message. Yet it’s one I stand by and agree with wholeheartedly.

Even if you didn’t vote for her or hate her guts, I highly suggest you read Clinton’s book. It was enlightening and heartfelt down to its core. It almost feels like required reading for everyone who watched the 2016 election happen.


Every Heart a Doorway by Seanan McGuire

Every Heart a Doorway (Wayward Children, #1)



Chantel read this last year, so check out her review!

“For us, the places we went were home. We didn’t care if they were good or evil or neutral or what. We cared about the fact that for the first time, we didn’t have to pretend to be something we weren’t. We just got to be. That made all the difference in the world.”

A long quote, but a lot of my review is going to focus on that and, more or less, examining why I enjoyed it so much. But, first I want to talk about the things I didn’t like so much.

  • The various worlds needed more work done. I wanted more on the page about them.
  • I felt like I got to know the side characters more than I did Nancy or Kade, although I liked them both.
  • I wish that Nancy’s asexuality and (possible) anorexia had been touched on more.
  • The general plot could have used a bit more development.
  • It could have been longer to fix most of these problems.

Those are my main critiques, something that I thought about a few times as I was reading it. What it boils down to, for me, was that this could have been a full-length story. It would have been a fun one, too. You learn about everyone’s worlds and you watch a slow development of the plot and characterization. It felt a bit tossed together in the end, even though I still really enjoyed it.

What I really loved was how the story was easily constructed around the quote I opened with. I’m trans, so I really understood how Kade felt. Deeply so. He’s a transman who (unlike me) has no support from family and is openly discriminated against. Yet, it was still beautiful to see how that quote shows you need to find a world where you can be your own.

Growing up, I really read a lot of books that were more male-focused. My parents didn’t care. They let me read/wear/watch whatever. No shits were given so long as I was happy. I loved Captain Underpants and my dad and I read them together. Harry Potter was my jam and I always connected with the male characters more. Anything by R.L. Stine was a fave.

I have a great memory of one of my friends in school, Tyler, wearing the same sweater as me and we were so fucking excited about it. This was when I was around nine, so not realizing I was trans but so damn happy about wearing the same shirt as a friend of mine and proclaiming we were twins. (It didn’t work. He was blond with freckles. I had long, dark, curly hair.)

Anyways, you find that world you can escape to. Kade found it in his Goblin Prince role after his world figured out he was a boy. Nancy was allowed to fully embrace her stillness and lack of food, along with that she didn’t have to actively pursue anyone sexually like she was expected to in her other world. Her real world allowed her to be who she was.

People who have been rejected by society for whatever reason can really relate to that quote, which was how I took it. It nearly got me tearing up because it was just so damn good at pinpointing exactly how the outcasts feel.

And this story, with the more thematic vein that runs through it, is focused on outcasts. Even in a world full of outcasts who found other worlds that fit them better, Kade and Nancy are the outcasts. He’s trans. She went to the Underworld, somewhere not many go. I just wish that they were better-developed characters. While I connected with them — for being, respectively, trans and ace — I also didn’t feel like they stood out. There were more interesting characters around them that I was more interested in knowing about.

Still, I enjoyed the book. It connected with me on a deep level and the plot that follows dark happenings (which I can’t touch on since they happen too late into the book and I don’t want to spoil things) was intriguing to follow. My main critique is that it could have been longer to fully expand on everything rather than split it up into novellas.

First Lines Friday

First Lines Fridays is a weekly feature for book lovers hosted by Wandering Words. What if instead of judging a book by its cover, its author or its prestige, we judged it by its opening lines?

  • Pick a book off your shelf (it could be your current read or on your TBR) and open to the first page
  • Copy the first few lines, but don’t give anything else about the book away just yet – you need to hook the reader first
  • Finally… reveal the book!

Caidyn will be in blue.
Chantel will be in purple.

The girls were never present for the entrance interviews. Only their parents, their guardians, their confused siblings, who wanted so much to help them but didn’t know how. It would have been too hard on the prospective students to sit there and listen as the people they loved most in all the world — all this world, at least — dismissed their memories as delusions, their experiences as fantasy, their lives as some intractable illness.

This is a really popular YA series that everyone seems to have read. Even Chantel has read it. But not me. I tried picking it up a while ago, but, you know, it didn’t click at the second. This time, it really worked for me.

So, what is it?

Every Heart a Doorway by Seanan McGuire

Every Heart a Doorway (Wayward Children, #1)

This week has been a really rough one for me and I needed the right mix of absurdity and seriousness to calm me down. It hit the spot. I’ve already picked out a quote to focus my review around and I’m excited. Unless it takes a turn I don’t like between reading this now and the time this posts.

My mother always started the story by saying, “Well, she was born in the backseat of a stranger’s car,” as though that explained why Wavy wasn’t normal. It seemed to me that could happen to anybody. Maybe on the way to the hospital, your parents’ respectable, middle-class car broke down. That’s not what happened to Wavy. She was born in the backseat of a stranger’s car, because Uncle Liam and Aunt Val were homeless, driving through Texas when their old beat-up van broke down. 

This week, I decided to choose a book that I really hope to read soon. Not, you know, one of the five books I’m reading right now. I will read this book within the next few months. I doubt I’ll get to it this month as I already have an idea of what I’m going to read if I can get through what I’m currently reading, but it’s a book I want to read really badly and have wanted to for a long time. I don’t think there are many hints I can give as I don’t know much about it so let’s go with the reveal.

I’ve chosen… 

All the Ugly and Wonderful Things by Bryn Greenwood

All of the Ugly and Wonderful Things cover

I only know a bit about this novel. Actually, it’s one Caidyn recommended to me awhile back and I haven’t gotten around to reading it yet, but I own a physical copy and an e-book copy so there isn’t a good reason why I haven’t read it, other than I’m putting it off for books I want to read more urgently. However, it sounds like a book I’d like and I hope that’s true!

February Wrap-Up

February has come and gone without much of anything going on. Pretty impressive, right? This month, we read The Lathe of Heaven by Ursula K Le Guin. March, we’re going to be reading Spook by Mary Roach. We’re also starting our Harry Potter Read. We hope that you all think about joining us since we’d love for it to not just be us!

Caidyn will be in blue.
Chantel will be in purple.

This month, I didn’t read as much. Which is all fine, really. I’m enjoying having more time to mull over books rather than reading like crazy and giving sub-par reviews for books that deserved something better.

5 stars

4 stars

2 stars

1 star

I love how when Caidyn says he didn’t read a lot in a month, he’s still read like 11 books. I, however, only read two books in February. Why? Because The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo put me in a slump. It was such an amazing book that I didn’t want to pick up any other book. I didn’t start reading again until the end of February. 

4.5 Stars

4 Stars

Take Your Medicine by Hannah Carmack

I received an ARC of this book from the author in exchange for an honest review. 

Take Your Medicine will be released on March 5th, 2018.




2/5 – This story is a loose retelling of Alice in Wonderland in which a girl named Alice or “Al” as she likes to be called, has vasovagal syncope which is a fainting disorder. A chance meeting in the woods leads her to some new friends and a cute f/f romance.

There were things I really enjoyed about this book. I loved that it was queer. I enjoyed the main character Al, I enjoyed Al’s love interest who went by “Rabbit”. I thought their romance was adorable even if a bit rushed. I enjoyed the relationship between Al and her mother as well as the Alabama setting. The writing was good and I was entertained throughout despite not being a huge Alice in Wonderland fan. I think this book had a lot of potential and it didn’t end up living up to it for me.

For one, I think it was too short and because of that I didn’t get quite as invested as I would’ve liked. The story ended rather abruptly and I was left wanting more. If it had been lengthened, I might have enjoyed more of a slow burn romance between Al and Rabbit and would’ve liked the conflict between Al and her mom to be dragged out more. Instead, it almost felt incomplete as if there was more to the story than what I read.

Secondly, there was something about the concept of the main character wanting to be cured that rubbed me the wrong way. She has vasovagal syncope and as a result, she faints whenever she is overwhelmed. This causes her to get injured a few times as it’s not always safe for her to be out on her own in case she faints. However, she is adamant about wanting to be cured that she seeks out two girls her age that claim to be witches in order to find a cure. Spoiler alert: she’s not cured. This is still a theme throughout the book until at the very end she decides that she doesn’t care if she’s cured. It would’ve been nice to see more conflict within her about this.

Lastly, I think my main issue with this book was the fact that there were random chapters in which the POV changed from Al to her mother Laura, then later to Rabbit. I felt this was completely unnecessary as the POV shifts came completely out of nowhere and took me out of the story. It’s one thing to have multiple POVs, but that was never established from the beginning. In the beginning, Al is our narrator and yet there are at least two random POV shifts that didn’t work for me.

Overall, I would’ve liked this more if it had been a bit longer and I had more time to get invested in the characters. I think it had potential, but instead, it left me wanting more out of it.

The Lathe of Heaven by Ursula K Le Guin

The Lathe of Heaven cover

Caidyn will be in blue. Rating: 4/5
Chantel will be in purple. Rating: 4.5/5

“Of course it happened. An effective dream is a reality, Dr. Haber.”

This book took awhile for me to get into. Le Guin was a fantastic writer, but her books take a little bit. It’s like any other older sci-fi or dystopian novel. It takes a couple of chapters to get there with the book. And since this book is only eleven chapters, you have to work fast. I thought the book was masterfully woven, taking place in a dystopian Portland with George Orr as the main character, in trouble for using drugs to suppress his dreams.

So, he’s assigned a psychiatrist, Dr. Haber, to get to the bottom of why he doesn’t want to dream and to force him to dream. It turns out, when he dreams intensely, he changes the world around him completely.

And from there the story goes into many directions. Musings on the reality of dreams, of corruption, and of humanity. I found it fascinating to read because, as I said, Le Guin is a fantastic writer. She is so odd and interesting with her works. I think my favorite thing she tried nailing down was about power and corruption, linked in with how a “utopian” world walks a fine line between that and a dystopia. Because, you might think you’re creating a perfect world through your power, but corruption occurs and creates a dystopia.

The one thing I didn’t like was the ending. It felt like it wrapped up too cleanly and didn’t give me a real, solid ending that I could hold onto.

The first book Caidyn and I read for our book club was The Left Hand of Darkness which we both loved. Le Guin’s writing is very slow paced and deliberate. It reads as if she picked out every word very carefully. I know that’s not for everyone, but I would recommend her writing because of how influential she was. I am constantly amazed that she wrote a book about a genderless/genderfluid society in 1969.

Three years later, she released The Lathe of Heaven which is completely different from The Left Hand of Darkness, but I found myself pleasantly surprised when Dr. Haber is said to have been with men and women. It was literally one sentence, but it hit me really hard. A bisexual male in a 70’s dystopian novel. We can’t even get bisexual males represented in 2018. In addition, there is a character who is explicitly mixed race and gets involved with a white man.

A huge topic of conversation in media revolves around representation. As someone who is queer and mixed race (among other things), I long to see myself represented in movies, tv, and books. It’s something I constantly sought out as a teenager. I just wanted to see a queer woman represented positively on the page and on the screen and I found a lot of representation that helped me but might be considered problematic. The representation in The Lathe of Heaven is not something I find problematic despite Le Guin not being a bisexual male nor was she mixed race. I do believe own voices representation is absolutely important, but sometimes all it takes is one sentence or a description of dark skin as opposed to light to make someone feel seen.

The book itself revolves around a dystopian version of Portland and a man named George Orr who can change reality with what the book calls an “effective dream”. He recounts to Dr. Haber that he dreamt of his aunt dying in a car crash and yet that became reality after he dreamed it. George remembers a reality where she did not die and instead came to visit and he remembers the new reality where she never came because she died in a car crash. Throughout the book, which is less than 200 pages, Dr. Haber hypnotizes George and tells him what to dream under the guise of curing him. As this continues happening session after session, the world keeps changing into what Dr. Haber thinks is a Utopian world. However, a world is never as perfect as it seems no matter the good intentions.

My only criticism of the book was the last two chapters. This book is really short and I think it definitely takes it’s time getting to a point where things need to be wrapped up and then I felt it was wrapped up too quickly. Not neatly, but very quickly. The rush to a resolution was off-putting after the overall pace being quite slow. I would’ve liked to see the resolution spread out to keep a consistent pace throughout the novel.

I completely agree with you on the last couple of chapters. They went too fast and summed it up neatly when I don’t think that a thing like this would have been summed up neatly. Perhaps it was an attempt to make it different. What did you think about Dr. Haber’s attempt to make a perfect world? I loved the way Le Guin showed that a utopia can easily turn into a dystopia.

Considering that the majority of the novel was the decline of a society based on one person’s version of a utopia, the fact that it was wrapped up neatly was disappointing. What I did like was that some things remained the same. The aliens still existed and now their intentions were known. So, it ended up not being a perfect world, but things were a little too neat for me.

I’ve read quite a few dystopian novels, I was actually obsessed with dystopias for awhile. What I thought was the most interesting about Dr. Haber’s utopian world was that he had good intentions for the world. For example, he tries to eliminate racism in the world but things like racism aren’t just going to disappear because someone wills it. It completely ignores the fact that there is a problem at all and instead of solving it, the problem is eliminated. We shouldn’t want to live in a world where we all look the same, as that would strip so many people of their identities.

I think I would have liked the ending better if it hadn’t summed up neatly, which is how reality is. Life isn’t neat or perfect. It doesn’t all just work out like we want it to. So, making it a little less perfect would have been nice. I also think that I would have liked it if the story moved at a quicker pace. It took me a bit to get into it. Even though I really liked it, it still took a bit. Also, the aliens were just… odd. It felt like an addition that didn’t really work and could have been weaved in better.

Most people who create modern dystopians (I’m thinking of Stalin or Hitler or someone) did it to create their own utopian society, yet they erase people’s identities in the process. I thought it was interesting how Le Guin handled it, to show that just because we want racism to go away, we don’t want to ignore cultural differences because that takes the life out of, well, life. It reminded me of that episode of The Fairly Odd Parents.

For a book that was very short, the pacing was a bit off. It started out really slow and then went far too quickly at the end. However, I didn’t mind it that much as I was pretty invested in the story throughout. I will agree that the aliens were a bit out of place, but again it didn’t bother me as much. They were described as giant turtles which I thought was unusual, but it almost reminded me a bit of Arrival. Just in that these alien beings are coming to Earth but aren’t malicious, and yet they are continually attacked by humans because they believe they are a threat.

Well, there is one particular scene that stood out to me actually which is when a man is arrested by another citizen for not reporting that he has cancer. As a result the man is euthanized in public at that moment. George brings Eugenics up to Dr. Haber, which is the idea of trying to purify the human race by sterilizing any quality that could “taint” the human population, such as low IQ, mental illness, or even race. Unfortunately, Dr. Haber doesn’t seem to care about this part of his world as he believes it’s what’s best for the world. Which is always a troubling thought as Hitler had the same views when it came to Jews.

To make a long story short so I don’t constantly rehash what you said: I agree. I have those critiques, but it didn’t take away from my enjoyment of the book. I liked it. The criticisms I have were just minor and they can easily be ignored and not take away from the story.

Yeah, that scene stood out to me, too. All he had was cancer, which, technically, isn’t that bad. Cancer can be highly genetic, but not necessarily. It was striking that he got taken away and we never found out what really happened to him. Eugenics is a topic that I’m familiar with because it’s a dark day in psychology since the psych tests used determined things. Such as, lower IQ meant you’d get sterilized. And what Hitler did was eugenics in practice.

However, Dr. Haber was also rather likable. At least, I liked him. Even when he was doing some of these things that make you frown, I still found him an interesting character. Maybe that’s because I like darker characters, though.

It’s definitely notable that Le Guin is criticising Eugenics in the novel, and I really appreciated it. I think most people would agree that Eugenics is an awful thing, maybe not so much in the past but now I think that’s definitely true. However, for me I found the elimination of race by a white male to be a big point in the book. One of the main characters Heather is described as black and when race is eliminated and everyone has uniformed grey skin, George notices that Heather’s race was a big part of her personality. I feel like that’s a subject of conversation now. By saying we live in a color-blind world, we are eliminating people’s identities by disregarding their race. It was something I found interesting which showed up in a novel written in the 70’s, once again like The Handmaid’s Tale, something that was written in the past can be just as topical now.

I actually really liked Dr. Haber, too. Even when he was playing God, he was doing what he believed was best for the world. He was wrong, and one person shouldn’t have the power he did, but he definitely let the power get to him. I started to worry if he could be stopped at one point.

Eugenics were the fashion of the time. They were fashionable and interesting. Also, many people supported Hitler until things started getting out about what he was really doing. So, there’s that. But I agree. With people on the very far left wanting to have a society that’s colorless, it does erase someone’s identity. I wouldn’t want to have someone feel like their race is ignored. It’s what makes society, society. I think that it works so well because of the difference is we’re going through a lot of the same issues we did in the 70s.

Dr. Haber was a character you could understand. You might not agree with him, but you understand why he wanted to do something. Because, at heart, we all want the world to be a better place. We just might think the world would be better in a different way. Yeah, I worried if he would stop and that he would stop using George as well.

Speaking of George, how did you feel about him? He was kind of meh for me. I definitely understood him and how he was, but I still didn’t find him all that compelling when it comes down to it. I pitied him and wanted him to see better days, but I didn’t love him.

It’s so easy to look back now and cringe at what people believed, especially what Hitler did, but at the time it was supported. I’m sure in the future we’ll look back on the present day and cringe about some of the things that were believed now. It is one thing to choose not to label yourself based on gender, sexuality, or race, but it’s not something you can take away from another person. Maybe instead of trying to eliminate the concept of race, we could learn to live together without inequalities. I mean, that would be nice.

If we had the opportunity to change the world for the better, wouldn’t you? However, what is better? Just because you have good intentions doesn’t mean the results are going to be good. The solution to overpopulation isn’t to get rid of a giant portion of the population through a plague, the solution to racism isn’t to get rid of race completely. These aren’t things that have easy answers and it likely won’t take just one solution. He was an interesting antagonist, but I wouldn’t even say he was an outright villain. Not only was he creating his own utopia, but he was creating a world where he was very powerful which ultimately was his downfall.

I really liked George. I mean, he’s constantly described as plain, milquetoast, even boring. I think he was a nice perspective to look at the world through because I felt it was easy to put myself in his shoes. He was a blank canvas almost, and didn’t have much of a personality. Out of all the characters, Dr. Haber was the most complex. George was meh, but I still liked him.

I’m completely sure that we will look back on today and realize how wrong we were about the world, but yes. It’s a fine line between a utopian society where all the races are honored and their cultures are important and a world where everyone’s the same.

Yes, I’d want the world better. It’s like the race thing. We want it to be better, but we don’t want to erase it. And, overpopulation is something that’s a whole mess, really. But, no, a plague to kill off most of the population isn’t really a good way to solve it. Dr. Haber, for all the bad he did, was someone you could understand since he touched on the hope that most of us have.

And, I think that George should have been a blank canvas because he constantly has people trying to create a world that he might not agree with. He’s creation at its finest, really. And to give him more of a personality would have meant creation already took place.

I think the main issue with George’s character was that he continued to let Dr. Haber control his dreams and as a result control the world. Yes, there were circumstances which made him feel like he had to continue therapy, but he rarely stood up to Dr. Haber and when he did things didn’t change. Too easily, he let Dr. Haber continue to take control of his dreams until he no longer had any use for George. I feel like that was frustrating for me.

And I agree. It was frustrating to read that over and over again when all George had to do was say no.

For as short as this book was, I think it packed quite a punch and for me this is the second book by Ursula K. Le Guin that I really enjoyed. There is no doubt she had a huge influence on the science-fiction genre.

The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid




Chantel also read this earlier in the year. Go check out her review!

I haven’t devoured a book like I did this one in a very long time. And it’s probably thanks to Chantel. She loved this book and it put her in a complete book slump because nothing else could measure up to it. And, when I told her that I was going to read it next, I got the reaction of: If you don’t love this, it might break my heart.

No pressure, right?

By the time I got to husband six or seven (I can’t remember which), I told Chantel that I loved it. And I got as a response (and I’m not being exact with it because I can’t count how many letters she used): “YAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOU HAVE SEEN THE WAYS OF KWEEN EVELYN”

Needless to say, I made her day.

The first thing that stood out to me was that there were so many great, insightful quotes from a woman who was almost 80 and had been in the acting business since 15, making it through it by lying and cheating and having sex to the top. I mean, Evelyn was the epitome of a Slytherin. But I loved her. I adored her, much like I adore all of the older actresses like Joan Crawford, Elizabeth Taylor, Marylin Monroe, Bette Davis, etc.

It was frank and honest, exactly how a tell-all should read.

Next, the characters were fantastic. I loved Monique, the person writing Evelyn’s memoir. Then I loved Evelyn. I even loved all of her husbands and the relationships she had with them, from actual love to just using them. Celia St. James was also amazing, someone I could connect with. Everyone felt so real, like they were taken from the headlines without being able to put an exact name to them.

Then, I loved how it showed and challenged the industry, mainly how women were used back then and how it was a part of the culture. Now, the culture is being challenged even more. Actresses were always about who they were with, what they were wearing, and what they were doing, not about who they were as a person. And, there’s been a slow change for it.

Finally, I loved the multiple expressions of marriage shown in this book. Marriage doesn’t have to be about passion and sex to be a loving, fulfilling relationship. And you don’t have to be legally married to be married. It was wonderful.

This was, to date, the easiest five stars I’ve given so far this year.

First Lines Friday

Welcome one and all to March. This is crazy that we’re here already. Where did the first two months go??? Although, I think that we say that every time. Time passes so fast.

First Lines Fridays is a weekly feature for book lovers hosted by Wandering Words. What if instead of judging a book by its cover, its author or its prestige, we judged it by its opening lines?

  • Pick a book off your shelf (it could be your current read or on your TBR) and open to the first page
  • Copy the first few lines, but don’t give anything else about the book away just yet – you need to hook the reader first
  • Finally… reveal the book!

Caidyn will be in blue.
Chantel will be in purple.

Deep breath. Feel the air fill my lungs. This is the right thing to do. The country needs to see that our democracy still works, no matter how painful this is. Breathe out. Scream later.

Another short one from me. I think that it’s kind of obvious what this one is, though. Most people have read it already (I’m late to the game as usual) and the first sentences give it away.

What Happened by Hillary Rodham Clinton

What Happened

I’m not going to go too in depth with this. I’d like to save that for the review, after all. Get into what I thought once I read it. I’ve come to this book with opinions and while not all of them are being destroyed, some are. Either way, the writing is absolutely beautiful and I like the glimpse into what she felt, not her carefully constructed facade.

Let’s start with the end of the world, why don’t we? Get it over with and move on to more interesting things.

Mine is very short this week as well because I think this small paragraph says all there is to know about the world this book takes place in. It’s a world that ends over and over again and now it’s ending again. I think it’s a bit obvious what this book is, as it’s part of a trilogy I wanted to read as part of my 2018 Bookish Goals. So without further ado, I present…

The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin

TheFifthSeason cover

So, I’m not very far into this, but I’m expecting great things. Everyone who I have ever seen or heard talk about this book says it’s incredible. I’ve heard almost all of the characters are people of color, that there are queer characters, and that there is even a polyamorous relationship. If all of these things are true then I will definitely be into this book. Especially because the concept itself is very interesting. I’m glad I’m not putting it off any longer. 

Caidyn has an announcement


I’ve had this draft around here for months. And I’ve sat on it until today.

Basically, in March, I’m going to be absent from here. I’m going to likely have things in drafts or maybe do little things. Right now, it’s all on the fence about what I’ll do. Chantel knows it, too.

But, why am I going to be gone? I’m sure those who are reading this are wondering.

I’m going to have a surgery.

I’m open on here about my gender, so most of you all know I’m a transman. In short, I’m having top-surgery. My surgeon told me that the whole thing’s going to be pretty minor, but I don’t know how my body will react.

So, I’ll be gone a lot in March. I know you all will miss me and my annoying ways. Maybe. Maybe you won’t miss me at all.

After March, I’ll be back like my old self, liking and annoying all of you!

Would You Rather: A Memoir of Growing Up and Coming Out by Katie Heaney

Would You Rather cover



I received this ARC from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This has no influence on my rating. 

Would You Rather: A Memoir of Growing Up and Coming Out will be released on March 6th, 2018.

4/5 – This year, I wanted to read a non-fiction book by a queer author about being queer. This spoke out to me when I saw it on Netgalley because it was exactly what I was looking for. What I didn’t expect was to relate so strongly with the author’s experience in coming out later in life and finding out who she was at the age of twenty-eight.

Katie Heaney wrote a book called Never Have I Ever: My Life (So Far) Without a Date and it was released in 2014. She references this book often in Would You Rather because, in it, she describes never having dated, being a virgin at twenty-five, and being attracted to men. At the time she wrote that book, she had not accepted that she was a lesbian. She might not have even known despite the signs she points out in Would You Rather.

It is fascinating to have two different books, written at two different points in your life that demonstrate how things can change over the course of just a few years. At twenty-five, she is single, straight, and a virgin and at twenty-eight she has a girlfriend, is a lesbian, and is no longer a virgin. I love how candid she is about talking about her journey in coming out to her friends and family and how at first she didn’t feel “gay enough” because she hadn’t ever dated a woman. I related to her story for a number of reasons, but I’m not as candid as she is. I don’t think I would ever write, let alone publish not just one but two books detailing my love life and sexuality. I admire Heaney greatly because of it. She talks about how she continued to get emails after her first book was released from young women who related to her story and I know she will get emails for Would You Rather for the same thing.

I thought the content of the book was great, I wasn’t too fond of the format. The book is described as a series of essays and sometimes the book flowed nicely and sometimes it didn’t. I would’ve liked if the book flowed all the way through and didn’t feel as if there were unrelated essays mixed in. That being said, I loved the essay about Heaney downloading and watching The L Word for the first time while she was studying abroad. There was even an essay where she talked about her anxiety and how she had been resistant to medication before accepting she needed it. Again, I really appreciated her openness throughout the memoir about her journey and I would highly recommend it.